Invitation!

I felt a tiny twinge of regret while I tucked her writing of blended letters and kept it inside my diary. 

If I had been offered my diary, there might have been a pinch of possibility. I had penned my journal with her name, in which I had written everything I couldn't let out to her. 

Maybe the other name on the wedding invitation received today would not have been so clangorous. 

I am realising now that the blaze bred inside me in my teens, not shady for 12 years, is none other than love.

When I was sitting with her in a silent room and seeing her name on my phone display, what should I name the emotion evoked inside me other than love? 

What should I name the slipping tears when I see another name on this card other than longing?

🖊️ Askar

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